day four, 19.43.
just got back home from the house of God.He answered some of my questions by giving me what i want...it's raining, tiny rain..you'd love it!you'll be happy by it!! cos i am when you are...
i know how you love the rain...small drops of water coming from the sky, how the lands wet by it, how you'd love the smell and how the wind gently breeze you...i read bout how you ask Him to walk beside you in the rain, somehow i did...by pouring the rain before me, i feel He is beside me...replacing you, giving imagination bout the smile in your face, thinking that you're happy...oh how i'm happy as well.
i may forgot few things lately, i forgot to cheer you n gave you the courage for the choir in your church that happened yesterday...i'm sorry, i'd never forget of what you do n will be doing...i remember you'll go to campus tomorrow, on every monday, thursday n friday. i remember how your coming enthusiast me, every single day of the week...how every of your smile lift me for the day ahead...how your every single story makes me smile n laugh in the morning, day or night...it's a gift every time i wake up in the morning, i never think how hot the sun will shines upon me or how heavy the rain will wet me...i just think of you.
i never ask for your forgiveness, cos i've made mine with God...i don't want you to forget it, cos i won't forever...i just want you to understand me, for what i've done, for every story i've told, for everything...
i'm hoping to ask you out again, knowing your every details, meet your family and talk to your mom and dad, your sisters, eat at places we've never been before, see movies i've always craving for, drinking coffee beside you, hold your hand and just look you in the eye, telling from heart to heart of how happy i will be...cos it's been a while for me to meet a girl like you, i might have waiting my whole life just to see and know you...how i'm grateful for it and there's nothing happier than that.
i'm sorry and i miss you...deeply

ps : please eat something, even if you're not hungry...you're killing me by not doing so, cos i always pray for your health n happiness.